Destiny

My angel. She’s gone and it all feels wrong. Like the world should just stop…

Just A Little Emotion For You

Please excuse my emotional ramble. First, I must state that at 10:15 in the morning, my dog has an appointment to be euthanized. She’s 11 years old, and suffering, and we can no longer do anything that will ease her pain. Since April we’ve been giving her IVs at home every week, and they informed us today that we would have to start doing so once or twice a day. These IVs are unpleasant for our dog. She does not like them, and we don’t want to make her spend hours a day living this way just to drag out her life a little longer while her kidneys continue to fail. She has kidney stones and bladder stones that we can’t have removed because she’s just too old for the surgery and they would come back pretty quickly now, though she has undergone surgery in the past to remove bladder stones. Also, she suffers from pancreotitis, on and off staph infection and is on several medications. The fact is, she lived longer than we even thought she would with all her health problems, and we can’t just make her suffer to ease ourselves. She’s been on the decline for about a week now too.

When I heard the news, it felt almost surreal. Like I couldn’t digest it. I went through denial because the fact is, our dog has a few moments where the pain lessens and she brightens up. Usually in the mornings. At first I thought she’d just need to stay at the vet and get fluids for a few days. But this morning (or I guess yesterday morning to be picky as it is 12:19 in the morning) we took her to the vet and we were informed about the necessary a fore mentioned change in her IVs. Please keep in mind that we can hardly afford what we pay to keep her alive now, but the price just spiked from $25 a month for the IVs to $200 a month. Not only could we not really afford it but our dog would be miserable just about all the time.

The fact is, I can live comfortably with our decision. I think it’s the right one. I used to pray that Liberty would live to be at least 10 years old. She’s the oldest dog I’ve ever owned personally, as I’ve had her over half my life now (I’m 21, her 11th birthday would be the 31st of this month).

Yet…It still hurts. So much.

My dog means more to me than almost anything else. She’s my angel. My family. The only one who would sit and listen and let me hug her on the rare occasion that I needed a good cry. I never liked crying to people. They talk too much.

The worst part is trying to talk about it with other people. There’s a lot of people I haven’t told. There’s a lot of people I don’t even want to talk about it with. Oddly enough, the people I’m most willing to talk about it with are people I don’t know as well…Many of them are just like “Oh man…that’s the worst…I’m so sorry…I know it’s rough…” It’s kind of nice to feel a bit of sympathy.

But then there’s other people. The people I really complain to about it. Where I talk out every detail. The people I try to cry to, and believe me, I have cried hysterically. Now I just feel empty, really…but that’s for another time. I just realized that there’s several things that are really bad to say to a sad (particularly a distraught with grief) person. And that’s really the whole point of this.

Sadness is a selfish emotion. It’s one that makes you feel alone, and feeds on a secret desire to be alone…to be special. While you beg for company and love, there’s some deep dark part of you that wants to think nobody understands. I hate most of all when people are like “I get it. I’ve been there.” Then I want to be like “Oh, you’ve spiraled into depression when you had to live without a dog? Good to know. That doesn’t make me feel better so you can stop talking about it now.” I don’t want to hear about your sadness. I don’t want to hear about your experiences. I don’t want to know that I’m not the only person that suffered. More than anything, I probably just want to talk about it.

I think a lot of people are like this without even realizing. When you’re upset, the thing that makes you feel better more than anything is crying and screaming about your problems and how unfair the world is and how you hate whatever it is you hate at the moment. Or you just want to describe how you’re feeling uninterrupted and just have people listen. You might want them to hold you, or to hold them, or to hold something but I think when a true, deep sadness strikes…we don’t want to be told we’re not alone. If anything I guess we would rather feel physically that we’re not alone, rather than not being allowed to wallow in our self pity for a bit. I think everybody deserves a bit of wallowing once in a while.

And one other thing…I hate being told I can’t be sad. Who are you to tell me I can’t be sad? Particularly in a world that preaches we should be true to our emotions. You want me to be happy? Great. Well I don’t feel happy. I don’t want to be happy. I’ll be happy later. Just for now…Just let me fill with grief. Let me heal naturally and make my own way.

Gah…I don’t know. This has been a meaningless rant by a very tired, very very sad woman. Sometime afterwords I’ll probably get on and post a few pictures of my dog. I have a lot. A lot a lot…I love her so much….

Sideways sketchy cat. Drawn for my cousin’s kid.

Sideways sketchy cat. Drawn for my cousin’s kid.

Bruce the Tiger
Doodleydoo.

Bruce the Tiger
Doodleydoo.

This is for Meijer’s safety poster contest they do every summer. It’s a great way to blow off work and have fun xD I drew Tick Tock and my friend drew the little comic strips illustrating what Tick is talking about.

Whew!

First off those posters I posted earlier went for $55 at the auction. They went for the highest cost and two people were fighting over them xD then ended with a truce and each took one of the posters, splitting the cost. They went for more than the autographed Red Wings pic too!

Side note: I’ve gotten a few likes on my picture with I highly appreciate so thank you! But I wanted to say rhat if you really want to support an artist, you should share their work (: Try to help them get out there. That doesn’t go for just me! And I’m not asking for shares on the posters. I had a few of those as well which I am also extremely greatful for. Thanks all ♡

Poster set I made to be sold at our Church’s silent action. Of course I had to use Bruce! I love doing a back view of Bruce because I don’t do it often but i love the white spots on the back of a Tiger’s ears. Anyway, enjoy.

P.S. Testing out a new watermark. I will likely put it on all my images from now on.

P.P.S. If you’re interested in purchasing this poster set, I’d be happy to get some printed and sent to you after I figure out a price.


“I’ve also modified my parents’ memories so that they’re convinced they’re really called Wendell and Monica Wilkins, and that their life’s ambition is to move to Australia, which they have now done. That’s to make it more difficult for Voldemort to track them down and interrogate them about me – or you, because unfortunately, I’ve told them quite a bit about you… Wendell and Monica Wilkins don’t know that they’ve got a daughter, you see.”
I’ve also modified my parents’ memories so that they’re convinced they’re really called Wendell and Monica Wilkins, and that their life’s ambition is to move to Australia, which they have now done. That’s to make it more difficult for Voldemort to track them down and interrogate them about me – or you, because unfortunately, I’ve told them quite a bit about you… Wendell and Monica Wilkins don’t know that they’ve got a daughter, you see.”
Commission Update Some More

Commissions Update

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Commission Types and Prices

- Line Art -

$5 Avatars

$8 Portraits

$15 Full Body Humans

$10 Full Body Animals

$17 Full Body Mythical Creatures

$12 Full Body Ponies

+$5 Per extra character.

- Color -

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$12 Portraits

$25 Full Body Humans

$20 Full Body Animals

$27 Full Body Mythical Creatures

$15 Full Body Ponies

+$10 Per extra character.

+$15 Painted Background

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Any original characters MUST have an accurate description or preferably some sort of character sheet or reference for the drawing.

Prices may be somewhat flexible. If you have a particularly simple or particularly difficult character the price of your commission might differ from above. Typically they’ll be the same or at least close.

There are a set number of three commission slots at any one time. I will not accept more than that at once. If I have enough requests, I might make a waiting list, however.

You may share my art! Yes. Just BE SURE that I get the credit for it. If I find my art and I am not linked I will come after you.

THE RIGHTS TO THESE IMAGES belongs to me. I am the artist. You may not sell or use my images for profit in any form. Any art I produce for you is Copyrighted to me, and is only for the personal use of the commissioner. IF you wish to use my art for any commercial purpose, we can talk about it.

I do not work until I have received payment.

I need at least a two week work time for each commission. You may receive it before those two weeks, or if I’m particularly busy I might contact you and tell you its’ going to be a bit late (particularly if it’s around midterms or finals week), so if you definitely NEED it by the end of those two weeks (if it’s for some sort of gift or something), please let me know when you order.

The Process

Step 1: Contact me via private messages/tweet if you’re interested. Or email me at destiny_rose13@yahoo.com

Step 2: We can discuss your commission. I will even thumbnail out ideas.

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Dear Fans

When you “like” my art oWhen you “like” my art or reblog me I get so excited I can’t even explain it.

When you follow I daydream about what I could do some day in a fangirlish haze.

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For ferrumanulum
This is your commission. I hope you like it. OwO If you don’t tell me and I can work on it more xD

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This is your commission. I hope you like it. OwO If you don’t tell me and I can work on it more xD

Commission Update Again

Commissions Update

Guys I have so much time to do commissions now that school’s out for the summer! Please feel free to purchase! And definitely suggest me to people looking for commissions. I really need the money and I highly appreciate it. You’re all fabulous.

Commissions are OPEN.


I offer a number of types of commissions. Feel free to send me a message with any questions if you’re interested and we’ll talk out the specifics of your particular commission.

Commission Types and Prices

- Line Art -

$5 Avatars

$8 Portraits

$15 Full Body Humans

$10 Full Body Animals

$17 Full Body Mythical Creatures

$12 Full Body Ponies

+$5 Per extra character.

- Color -

$8 Avatars

$12 Portraits

$25 Full Body Humans

$20 Full Body Animals

$27 Full Body Mythical Creatures

$15 Full Body Ponies

+$10 Per extra character.

+$15 Painted Background

Commission Rules and Guidelines

No NSFW

Any original characters MUST have an accurate description or preferably some sort of character sheet or reference for the drawing.

Prices may be somewhat flexible. If you have a particularly simple or particularly difficult character the price of your commission might differ from above. Typically they’ll be the same or at least close.

There are a set number of three commission slots at any one time. I will not accept more than that at once. If I have enough requests, I might make a waiting list, however.

You may share my art! Yes. Just BE SURE that I get the credit for it. If I find my art and I am not linked I will come after you.

THE RIGHTS TO THESE IMAGES belongs to me. I am the artist. You may not sell or use my images for profit in any form. Any art I produce for you is Copyrighted to me, and is only for the personal use of the commissioner. IF you wish to use my art for any commercial purpose, we can talk about it.

I do not work until I have received payment.

I need at least a two week work time for each commission. You may receive it before those two weeks, or if I’m particularly busy I might contact you and tell you its’ going to be a bit late (particularly if it’s around midterms or finals week), so if you definitely NEED it by the end of those two weeks (if it’s for some sort of gift or something), please let me know when you order.

The Process

Step 1: Contact me via private messages/tweet if you’re interested. Or email me at destiny_rose13@yahoo.com

Step 2: We can discuss your commission. I will even thumbnail out ideas.

Remember, if you’re happy with a product, suggestions never hurt a seller!

Open Slots

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Gurgwen Goldenwhisp Character Sheet 1. Also working on an expression sheet (:
Gurgwen is a frequent NPC in my Dungeon and Dragons games. Now I’m working on starting a webcomic featuring her. As a time traveler, I thought I ought to try drawing her at different ages.

Gurgwen Goldenwhisp Character Sheet 1. Also working on an expression sheet (:

Gurgwen is a frequent NPC in my Dungeon and Dragons games. Now I’m working on starting a webcomic featuring her. As a time traveler, I thought I ought to try drawing her at different ages.

Commissions Update
Commissions are OPEN.


I offer a number of types of commissions. Feel free to send me a message with any questions if you’re interested and we’ll talk out the specifics of your particular commission.

Commission Types and Prices

- Line Art -

$5 Avatars

$8 Portraits

$15 Full Body Humans

$10 Full Body Animals

$17 Full Body Mythical Creatures

$12 Full Body Ponies

+$5 Per extra character.

- Color -

$8 Avatars

$12 Portraits

$25 Full Body Humans

$20 Full Body Animals

$27 Full Body Mythical Creatures

$15 Full Body Ponies

+$10 Per extra character.

+$15 Painted Background

Commission Rules and Guidelines

No NSFW

Any original characters MUST have an accurate description or preferably some sort of character sheet or reference for the drawing.

Prices may be somewhat flexible. If you have a particularly simple or particularly difficult character the price of your commission might differ from above. Typically they’ll be the same or at least close.

There are a set number of three commission slots at any one time. I will not accept more than that at once. If I have enough requests, I might make a waiting list, however.

You may share my art! Yes. Just BE SURE that I get the credit for it. If I find my art and I am not linked I will come after you.

THE RIGHTS TO THESE IMAGES belongs to me. I am the artist. You may not sell or use my images for profit in any form. Any art I produce for you is Copyrighted to me, and is only for the personal use of the commissioner. IF you wish to use my art for any commercial purpose, we can talk about it.

I do not work until I have received payment.

I need at least a two week work time for each commission. You may receive it before those two weeks, or if I’m particularly busy I might contact you and tell you its’ going to be a bit late (particularly if it’s around midterms or finals week), so if you definitely NEED it by the end of those two weeks (if it’s for some sort of gift or something), please let me know when you order.

The Process

Step 1: Contact me via private messages/notes if you’re interested.

Step 2: We can discuss your commission. I will even thumbnail out ideas.

Remember, if you’re happy with a product, suggestions never hurt a seller!

Open Slots

Slot 1 - xxx - 00/00/00

Slot 2 - xxx - 00/00/00

Slot 3 - xxx - 00/00/00